基本信息
（一）[2012•临沂四县联考改编]
i am a straighta student and study has been my whole life. when you come from a family of educators, it just seems natural.
with high academic standards and a competitive __1__， i don’t just dislike losing. i can’t stand it. i need to beat the __2__ students, preferably in everything. i’ve even __3__ so far as to define myself by my grades, saying that how outstanding i am. if i don’t get the grade i __4__， then i am lost.
today i was sitting in class trying to __5__ the last minutes studying for a test i had to get full marks. __6__ the girl behind me started talking to me, i tried to listen __7__ while still glancing at my study sheet now and then. when i thought the conversation required it, i smiled, nodded and __8__. and then i found myself wishing she would be __9__ so i could study. after a while, she said, “you know, you’re a really good __10__. you’re so easy to talk to.” i froze.
i replayed the praise in my head before smiling and accepting it __11__. but inside, i knew it wasn’t true. she’d made every effort to have a conversation and i wasn’t even trying to participate.
i passed the test excellently despite my __12__ of lost study time, but the one thing i needed to learn most wasn’t on that test. i had __13__ being the best student so that i had failed at just being normal. so what matters to me most? what i have is all about my personal __14__ and about me being too selfcentered. there can only be so many schola
